who are you and where am I going in this handbasket?

I am not sure what to put in my journal today... ugh...

Dana called last night and wants to set up a web page... I am going to start teaching her HTML tonight, she wants to put up a page with some of her photography, (I think part of that is for school)

I was supposed to play softball yesterday but REALLY didn't feel like it... they won like 18 to 5 or something, the first win...

I have heard things from several people lately that make me very unhappy... grrr... Sometimes I am not sure what to think of my life.. Every once in a while I think I am completely fooling myself, that the entire world thinks I am this big joke or that someone will see as I see myself...

I guess I am just really depressed today...

I cleaned for 2 1/2 hours and it doesn't look like ANYTHING got done.. that bites

I found a C program that will pull html form variables for use in a shell script, I haven't been able to get it to compile yet but haven't figured out why... I may work on it later today... I am hungry... I wonder what is in the vending machine.

I miss all my old friends.... I would like to start this other schedule so I won't be as tired in the evening and can start going out more often... I haven't been to the chamber in forever and would like to see everyone again...

I just feel like shit in general this morning ...

in the mist of a different reality

I am still hating life... so be it....

I wrote a simple script to pull variables from html into a shell script... I still however have not been able to figure out how to pull from forms, I have a friend who says he can help me write a C script that will pull from the html to shell... I am a bit worried about security however so I am going to have to go through everything I write with a fine toothed comb. I am also going to have to figure out the logistics of the IO and how the variables are returned... Shell is a bitch for anything except STDIO.

I don't know what I am going to do about where to live. I don't have time to look for a house to buy much less a cheap apartment, however I am NOT going to live where I am now. when I got this place I was expecting to have a roommate so that I wouldn't have to pay all of the rent myself.. that isn't how it ended up..

I still have LOTS of cleaning to do on the apartment... grrr... I am tired of having junk everywhere... I definitely need a bigger place.

Elizabeth is sick... this just isn't a good week for anyone is it...