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I will miss you
Jul. 27th, 2002 11:41 pmGot up and left the house at 8:35, got to Bonnie's at 9:00 she wasn't dressed yet (I was a early) she showered and got dressed, Chloe got there about 10:00 (she was late) we left in my car. the drive up was alright, I hadn't met Chloe before, it was good to see Bonnie. we showed up at the church at 1:45 (our time) and the services were in an hour so we went to get something to eat. we went to Ruby Tuesdays and I had a caesar salad, then we went to the church. I saw some of the group on the way in, Teresa, Chris, and a couple others. the priest asked us to take our seats. The funeral began.
we sang a hymn, he said some words, listened to this horrible vocalist destroy ava maria he talked more, Stephen got up and said something, we sang another hymn and it was over.
Honestly I don't remember a word the priest said. I remember the color of the grass outside the church as plain as if I could see it now, the trees, the stone work as if I was looking right at them. It really sunk in then, she is gone I hadn't really realized it, something in my mind was telling me it wasn't real up until I sat down in that church and looked outside and saw the grass in it's beautiful green. My eyes were in the mists but my head could do nothing but run through the times we had had together. Suddenly I could remember every word she ever said to me, every glance she ever gave me all the happy times we had together, all the sad, when she cried in my arms, the long conversations we had in the car just driving around randomly, the fun we had sitting on the steps throwing rocks down the parking lot.
I held back the tears as long as I could. The service was over it was the longest hour I think I had ever spent, yet when it was over it seemed the shortest. I stood and slowly made my way back to the back of the church, I could hold it in no longer, my chin quivered and I could feel the tears running down my cheeks. I gave everyone a hug and we left, Bonnie and Chloe had to be back in Atlanta soon.
Most of the ride home I was in a daze, I didn't know what to think or feel, the road kept going on and on. I looked up at the mountains and wished to be under one of the trees just sitting smelling the air and looking out into the sky.
She is gone, one of the fondest parts of my life has gone with her. I will miss you.
we sang a hymn, he said some words, listened to this horrible vocalist destroy ava maria he talked more, Stephen got up and said something, we sang another hymn and it was over.
Honestly I don't remember a word the priest said. I remember the color of the grass outside the church as plain as if I could see it now, the trees, the stone work as if I was looking right at them. It really sunk in then, she is gone I hadn't really realized it, something in my mind was telling me it wasn't real up until I sat down in that church and looked outside and saw the grass in it's beautiful green. My eyes were in the mists but my head could do nothing but run through the times we had had together. Suddenly I could remember every word she ever said to me, every glance she ever gave me all the happy times we had together, all the sad, when she cried in my arms, the long conversations we had in the car just driving around randomly, the fun we had sitting on the steps throwing rocks down the parking lot.
I held back the tears as long as I could. The service was over it was the longest hour I think I had ever spent, yet when it was over it seemed the shortest. I stood and slowly made my way back to the back of the church, I could hold it in no longer, my chin quivered and I could feel the tears running down my cheeks. I gave everyone a hug and we left, Bonnie and Chloe had to be back in Atlanta soon.
Most of the ride home I was in a daze, I didn't know what to think or feel, the road kept going on and on. I looked up at the mountains and wished to be under one of the trees just sitting smelling the air and looking out into the sky.
She is gone, one of the fondest parts of my life has gone with her. I will miss you.
